Current mood:

frustrated

Hello, let's get to the point. I and some of fellow mates had been keeping this to ourselves and not revealing to you the truth this is because we believe in giving people around us a chance to prove themselve that they are not what we think they are but in this case, we had been quite disturb by it. Today blogging is about to wake Esley's mind and eyes!

You was a great friend and a great listener last time but that was last time. Now you had totally change. Not abit but alot. Remember ending of May Maths camp Aini got shoot me n you for being boastful after knowing that we got the highest post? Remember? Well, i did reflect and do something about it but did you ever try reflecting? I think you don't and i think you took her words as a joke. June holiday training was terrible for me frankly. Well, you did helped up with the performance formation but did you ensure that they do the way you wanted? You just pushed it to me, Zi Jie and the others to go through every single thing with them. The only thing saw you interested in was to punish them. Everything we do are all stupid and not right to you and you keep thinking what you are doing is perfect. HELLO, nothing is perfect in this world including us! Think bout this, have you seek for others opinion before making your decision? Have you? I salute you if you say you did. I know you are the Overall incharge for our unit but please keep this in mind that we are humans like you and we have feelings. You are being a BUREAUCRATIC person for your info. We are not expecting you to be LAISSEZ-FAIRE what we want is DEMOCRACTIC and not to have any AUTOCRATIC people. Have you forgotten about this ESLEY? I remember you saying that be DEMOCRATIC is better. WTF. Lead yourselve before leading us. I can still remember clearly how you did your so called 'perfect' preparation for the recent campfire. *CHEERs* to you. I was really expecting you be ready for that night but no. Everything you push it to me. Okey find whatever sorry to bring this matter out here again. Smiling and laughing while taking squad also banned by the rules that you had be observing? Hey com'on, don't you have sense of humour. Why must make cadets showing us attitude by you making us put that stupid serious mask on our faces. Smiling? Whatever but its totally sucks! You say if anything no happy with NCOs don't shoot it infront of the cadets but somewhere else but why you did the opposite of it just now?! Huuh?! Oh i see, the book you following is only applied to us but not you. HAHAHA. Shouting in public and making a nuisanes out of yourselve. Can't just settle it another day? Using 'Fucking attitude' after NP also wrong? Oke fine what every follow your own princip that you are holding strong with. You think you can do much more better without our help huh? Prove to us la!

That was to only make him wake up and not making anyone upsad or furious about it. Reflect on yourselve!

To family i'm sorry if i had cause trouble by stomping my foot and kicking the door and also breaking the plate!

GOODbye!